Thankful

What a difference a year makes. Last year at this time, I was scared, depressed and unable to very thankful unfortunately. We had just had our first appointment with the infertility specialist and did not yet know what direction we would be heading. I remember Thanksgiving Eve well. Frank and I had some wine, dinner and just spent time together. No TV, no computer. It was nice. It was a little reprieve before the holidays smacked us in the face with reminders everywhere that Christmas is about children and we had no guarantees we would be parents.

Today, I put the baby down for a nap in his crib. He laid there awake for awhile, quiet and content as I watched him on the monitor. He was too precious to leave there. So I scooped him up, declared family nap time and laid him in the bed with me ( Terrible I know). I laid him next to me and watched his big blue eyes slowly start to close as he wiggled as close to me as he could get and I cried remembering how I felt last year.

There are so many things I am thankful for this year.
- a happy, healthy, beautiful baby boy
- my wonderful husband who really is an amazing dad
- the doctors and technology that enabled us to become pregnant in the first place and the insurance that covered most of the cost
- my family and friends who supported us through our treatments and have welcomed Liam with love and generosity

I hope all of you ( the 2 people still reading) have a wonderful Thanksgiving. I hope you all can feel as blessed as I do either now or very very soon.